No. Not that romantic pap. MY notebook. Or notebooks. I have several since I tend to lose them or use whatever I can find when I need to jot something down. These books are filled with ideas, notes to self, designs, whatever. I don’t know what to call it, but I tend to obsess over an idea until it is either (a) completed, (b) written down, or (c) horror of horrors forgotten. The notebooks serve two purposes. They are placeholders until I either am able to or want to see a design come to fruition. That way I am able to give P some rest from my incessant ramblings and I am able to get some sleep.
… I’m rambling right now.
What I was getting on here to talk about today was the state of my health, both mental and physical. My platelets and hemoglobin are both within normal limits, ergo, I am feeling somewhat human again. As a side note, normal levels means an increase in chemo dosage. It got bumped up to 75% today. We’ll see what next week’s CBC brings us. Back to feeling normal… I have energy to do more than moan on the couch and I’m bored. This means that I’m jonesin’ to do stuff. What it really means is that I’ve got a ton of DIY projects pinned, a half-finished quilt on my dining room table, and a notebook filling with home renovation ideas.
So far, I’m planning to change the kids’ rooms. C has requested a Borderlands theme and D has requested Monster High. I’m also planning to work on the rest of the house as well. I want a complete change. To be honest, it would be easier to move, but P and I went through all of the pros and cons over the course of a few months before finally deciding that it would be better to stay put until I finish chemo. I’m fine with staying, but the house has to have a total revamp. This is not just a cure for my boredom. Everywhere I look, the sounds, the smells *particularly at this time of year* reminds me of illness and death. It consumes me, and the closer I get to anniversary time, the worse the depression gets. If I have to stay within these walls, I have to change them.
So now I plan. It’s going to be a challenge, particularly since I’m under a tight budget, but I look forward to it.
I’ll be putting pictures up of the progress.